Today is Rs birthday. I know I shouldn't talk about my ex but... it's his birthday. It's been 3 years since we started dating. I don't want anything from him anymore but it's so strange to have someone so close to you for so long and now have no clue what's going on with them. It's almost like he died. It's like what he wanted, I'm practically dead to him.
On the subject of death. I don't know if I ever mentioned this but I know of a lot of ED blogs, like, girls who have eating disorders and write about how they go about losing weight. I used to be totally fascinated by it, now that I'm better though I'm just scared and worried about them. I sometimes comment and give them advice that I hope will contribute to them living more healthily, since I can give it from the right perspective; I'm not just some teacher or parent who doesn't get it. But one of the blogs I've been following for ages just got deleted. And I'm really worried about what happened to the girl. She had bulimia and since she wasn't that skinny she didn't realize how bad her health was, but based on how many years she'd been starving and binging on unhealthy food she must have been on the verge of collapsing. And most of ED related deaths are due to suicide.
It just makes me so very sad and I wish I could do something.
x
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