I am terrified, I think too much

I am terrified by iamx. Best song ever.

Sometimes I scare myself. The way I think of myself.

I look at myself in the mirror and start setting up goals, before remembering that I'm not allowed to lose weight. I can't accept that I'm not overweight, I'm in the higher range of healthy weight, I just feel so much excess body mass everywhere. I see pictures of myself and catch myself thinking I look attractive and hating that. I don't know. I just don't want to be... rounded. I want clothes to fall off me.

Who the fuck would want that?

x

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