The awkward moment when his future gf reads this

So D asked me why I hadn't written page after page about how sorry I was not to have seen him. My answer was something along the lines of pointing out how wonderful it'll be when his next gf goes over my blog and reads that, although he said he didn't mind having me on the sideline to make sure the girl he's with doesn't get too comfortable. I kind of like the fact that I'm considered a threat to them.

Yeah, I am sorry not to have met with him... but going to a party and spending the night 2 hours away from where I need to be in sober condition at 9 the next morning? Doesn't sound like a great idea. He could have skipped a practice and come to me but noo, that's like impossible for some reason...

So to get to the ridiculous confession you've all been anticipating:

If I had spent the night at his house I would have probably slept with him. I considered this on the plane going to sweden, and thought about my little vow earlier on. Then a hint of a thought appeared... that maybe I could go against my new-born principles, because I wouldn't be going against them at all with him.

Now I feel icky cos that was too close to saying I have feelings.

I guess I'm just bored. I wonder how my cute little lamb meat in the third grade is doing. Maybe I should move in on him...

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