The park at night

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her.."

Yeah. I found this quote and thought: Hey! This is why I don't hit it off with any of the boys I've been around lately. Because I've had this, the one in a million actual teenage love. Now, when a boy tells me he has feelings for me, I don't believe him... because his idea of feelings is different from mine.

I don't mind being around boys without the whole commitment thing, don't get me wrong. Just, when he thinks it's for real I just feel awkward.

So yesterday was fun, actually. I joined some of my friends who'd met up in the park. S (the S who's not dating a 2 years older girl with a boyfriend) got just slightly too high to have a serious conversation with, but I didn't care after that level of alcohol in my blood. And I was conflicted with thinking boys are cute who have been described by M as ultimate losers.

Either way, in the end I got a call and left the table, and then I met up with an other friend.

Tonight I have the first game! And after I'm seeing another friend. It sounds like I'm just trying to brag about having friends, and I'm not (... maybe a little. joke;)), just I can't write letters anymore they're too many. Anyways, the one I'm meeting tonight I know through my parents, and he's really sweet. We're friends right, but he's kinda protectively hot, like when I broke up with R he said I deserve better, and when we went out for lunch he insisted on paying (I don't require this from a boy, but it's nice when he at least offers).

So yeah, I don't know yet if we're going out somewhere or like chilling around. Either way ^^

Now I'm gonna go grocery shopping with the mother because her drivers license got evoked. No she wasn't speeding, but she just found out that she's been here for too long to drive with a swedish one and now she has to take the swiss driving test. I finally understand what the Father meant when he described her as she was in high school and university, because she really does freak out and think she's gonna fail for sure. And if she scores 100%, then it was luck and she's still gonna fail next time.

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