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So I went on one of the really famous swedish blogs and realized that there was a major difference between their ones and mine. Pictures. Pictures, pictures, pictures even if they just write "today I didnt do anything" there is a picture of them not doing anything. So Ive decided to post a picture of myself. This one I took at my country house in sweden (yes those are my sisters horse posters in the background), wearing what I wore today. I bought that shirt the other day and I kind of love it, so yeah. This is me trying not to look like a camera whore.

At least I somehow managed not to look fat.

Sooo bet youre biting your nails wondering how the "party" went down the other day. The father drove me and was terrifyed by the looks of Ds metal-loving friend. Skinny with long hair, he must be a druggie.

Truth is, theyre not really my crowd. But Im trying to expand my views and it was a nice change of atmosphere. Later on Im planning on posting a picture of heating up the grill with some kind of advanced-looking power tool used to dry paint.

Oh! And when we got home we saw that my sister had gotten a post card and it took my a while to realize that it was the one I wrote when we went to the Blinde Kuh with school. You could actually see what I had written! yay...

Im so dead. Like, Im either getting sick or Im seriously hung over. Yeah, there was quite a lot of drinking last night. I shared beds with D, and Im not so sure what we said anymore, but he was talking about how he was going to miss me... and that I should try to be more confident and show my real self in stead of some shell. He says that whenever Im around other people I act different, closed up somehow, and its a shame because Im such a wonderful person when I open up. Sweetest ever or what!?

But hes not the first one who said that thing about opening up. I really should work on that... I just dont trust people. Even if its someone I know well, Im scared they will abandon me. I have trust issues, commitment problems and separation anxiety, plus Im crazy jealous. The optimal friend in other words.

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