What could have been

I see other people sometimes, who have made a choice I could have made but didn't, and wonder what would have been if I had. For a moment I regret everything and want to turn back the clock, but then I think of how I could have missed what I have now. I'm just really miserable about missed opportunities, but I keep telling myself that if it was meant to be, it would have happened and what I'm living now is actually better for me, or at least it will become better. I just cannot let go of the thought that it's my fault for having messed things up and I'm gonna mess up next time as well, either way. It's not me. It's not me. It's not me. It must be everyone else then. x /E