Summer

Summer has officially started. I start my 3 week job on Monday, and then I'm going to Sweden for 3 weeks after that. Talked to D about making a road trip to Berlin,  that would be fun actually.

Today I'm going to the gym, then I'll have lunch, and then I'll try to get around to sorting through some papers from the past year. It needs to be done in a way. I have so many papers from past years though!
When we graduate we get to through our old school material out the window of the school. I already have, like, a whole bag from last year, of notes I don't even need anymore.

Last Thursday was quite fun. Me and P tried to get some people together in a park. As expected, not that many could make it on 3 days notice, but we still had fun. It was quite weird though, towards the end. I mean, who the fuck leaves a tipsy me alone with a 15 year old who's in love with me? I hope I wasn't too mean to him. I kind of let him cuddle with me earlier that evening, just like have his arm around me and whatnot, and then some hours later I remind him it's not gonna happen. I just think he's such a good person and I'm so infinitely flattered by him paying so much attention to me, so I guess it's possible to confuse me being nice with me responding to whatever he feels. But it's always like that with me: I don't know how to be friendly without flirting. But then I realize that, so I bring it up and harshly remind him there's no potential for anything.

"Theres no spark."
Interpreted: "I'm gonna treat you like shit, use you and then ignore you, and when you feel lousy and don't know where you stand with me, I'll explain to you that this is because there's simply no spark between us."

Great summer kickoff. At least I'll be a bit tanner and fitter come fall.

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