.. so are you shy, gay or do you have a girlfriend?

Am I not attractive to him or was I treated respectfully for once?

Is that what it feels like to be a normal girl?

In that case, I don't want that. 

It's a general problem with me. I don't know if I should be proud and confident, which leaves me pissed off and feeling like I don't get what I deserve, or should I be humble and underestimate myself, think that I didn't deserve better and end up resenting myself. 

I'm too tired to write at the moment, more will follow. 

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