What it´s all about

I´ll bet you all think my life circulates around boys.
I suppose, to a certain extent, maybe; or at least it used to.

Second guess may be school, which fills up a huge part of my life.

Let´s just say that those of you who are bored with your lives are lucky. Those who´d like to have less homework and be more noticed by that cute guy, those who never really think about how they look and whether or not they want to wake up tomorrow.

Theres a point when I don´t know if I´m doing better or if I just don´t check how I´m doing anymore. I eat now, though. And get fatter and fatter...
I just can´t have a balance. I always feel like I´m eating too much or too little and it´s really anxiety inducing. And at the same time, I don´t want this. I don´t want to feel bad, I don´t want to get better. What´s left then? Giving up?

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