I like your new face

You know that look on a boys face when he´s into you? It´s kind of gazing and serious, like in the movies before they lean in to kiss.

The first time D looked at me that way was... surely over a year ago. I didn´t think much of it, actually. I mean, sure, people who spend so much time together are bound to be attracted to each other at one time or other. And jealous of each others lovers.
I sort of didn´t think much of anything with him, we kind of did everything out of the possibility of doing it. Possibly I should have thought about these things, that´s just the disadvantage of acting before thinking. Because last night was... One of those nights you longed for but afterwards wish didn´t happen because you´re afraid "everything´s ruined". This is the point where I freak out over every possible outcome.

I just want to be friends with him. In my head.

Ah, I´m just scolding myself for being so dramatic. Were it not for the dramatic circumstances, then I wouldn´t even think twice about where we stood.

"What is it about you that makes you, as soon as you meet a nice guy you like and who likes you, jump into bed with someone else?". Guys say the smartest things when they´ re naked.

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