Gone for a while

Sorry for not updating for a while, I haven´t had a computer available for any longer period of time.

I´m in Sweden, as you may have figured. I passed my theory driving test last week and I have the practical exam on Wednesday.

Last night was fucked up, I went out with the fathers friends and theyre really cool, but he´s not and he kept standing around watching his toyboy all night, who happened to be the one I hung out with. So I didn´t really dare move at all, it was super awkward. The "toyboy", L.L. whose actually really nice, totally understood what I meant but the father didn´t get it at all. Either way, we went home.

Now L wants us to come down to the spa where he works and claims he can have guests but the father doesn´t want to and is really pissed off about it. I guess it didn´t help that I told him to go fuck himself when he shoved pictures of people he knows in my face at breakfast. He´s currently cursing at me not to "write anything stupid" and cleaning the windows in my room.

I´m seeing D tonight at least. He slept over at mine last week. L asked me last night what was actually up with me and D but I´m not too sure myself either. The boy I have in Basel, or thought I had in Basel, isn´t really answering the message which I waited until Thursday to send. Not that we have obligations to each other or anything but I thought he´d be glad to hear from me and I felt a bit guilty over the whole D thing... even though-again-no obligations. It´s more about a vague drift towards sticking to one boy.

But yeah. "If you´re worried about SATs and love at the same time, you´re a bit too young to be worried about love."

x

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