Undefinable

I've been kind of working for school today, but while my problem usually is getting around to doing stuff, today it's getting everything done. I start doing maths, I get distracted, I start filling out my application for EYP in march, I can't figure out what to write. I don't even want to think about my matura application.

I've been sitting leaned over the toilet for ages hoping to throw up to get rid of the nausea. It's not really nausea though, it's hard to describe. It's like my stomach content is out of balance. No wonder, I ate just a few minutes earlier.

This picture again.

I'm sorry for being so dramatic. I should just shape up and do what I'm supposed to do. Snap out of it?

I sometimes feel fully convinced that I could be better than I am if I really tried.

Maybe the problem in doing well isn't being capable of doing, it's being capable of putting enough effort in.

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