More explicit

Thought I´d give you guys a more explicit report on how my christmas is going. 

I´m on the country side, in the fathers house, just got back from the mothers. 

I had like zero time to get presents so I gave everyone either cookies or an adorable rubber duck with hearts on which I came across in a store in like a million different colors. 

I met up with D yesterday, yeah I´ll bet you all wanna know how that went. What if I told you it´s none of your business? Haha yeah right, that´d be like me. And he doesn´t mind I guess, as long as I say good things. But the truth is we just hung out. Kissed him once towards the end, but it was really confusing. That´s usually the point where the boy throws himself over me, rock hard, and wondering which hole I may let him stick it into. He just stood there, and then playfully got us back to normal conversation. Uhm what? 

But I was texting with him today, yes I´m a definite texter, I text about everything rather than calling. He started saying something like he´d thought it would be a bad idea and couldn´t really explain why cos he said he was bad at expressing emotions over text (thats why God invented the emoticon ;P) which just made the whole thing clearer -.- but then he seemed to man up and say never mind and something about acting on impulse. 

But I don´t know... I mean, I´m into him and all, but... yeah you know. Not that S is particularly loyal, but I feel a bit attached to him somehow. Still, no commitment, I do whatever I want. He hasn´t even written to me or anything, and yeah I know I havn´t written to him either but he wouldn´t answer so whats the point.

Ds sleeping over at mine tomorrow. Driving out here, lucky bastard got his drivers licence, I´m practicing like crazy but I´m still not 18. Can´t decide what to make for dinner. Haha, difficulties in life huh. 

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