Mine now?

I don't know how to go about it when a boy I would be with if he didn't have a girlfriend wants to break up with said girlfriend.

I mean, we still won't be together, only at given opportunity.

But I like him. And he may be single next time we meet.

I told him I never liked her, and I didn't actually. She's not all that beautiful and I found her quite rude. I mean, I do that thing where I diss boys to flirt but I do it with a cute smile and a playfulness she didn't really manage.

Though, he does really like her and I feel sorry for him.

Still, part of me can't wait to be with him without thinking that there's someone else who's more important, who gets to be closer to him than me.

Play pretend and say "if only" to excuse the things I do to him.

At the risk of sounding romantic, something I usually avoid at all cost, I miss being close to him. I may have at some point admitted feelings for him and I won't completely deny it.

x

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