Kind of like pretty somehow

"I know I'm being used, but that's okay cos I like the abuse,

I know he's playing with me, but that's okay cos I've got no self esteem"

Veronica Maggios cover of Self Esteem <3

Sometimes, in the morning, when I do makeup and my hair is in all directions, I kinda think positively of my looks. But that's still just the makeup. I mean, I question what I like about my looks and it's all because of the makeup. Without it I'd just look pale.

This only happens when I'm wearing seriously baggy clothes. I don't even dare stand in front of a mirror without a huge shirt. I just start panicking. It's hard to crave underweight when you're "healthy looking". Or elephant level fat according to me.

But a little pretty. If you quint your eyes and angle your head.

x

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