In my head

"If I'd write down every single thought that passed through my head today, I could be a famous philsopher" So I dont know why, but I can't make a new row on this blog since a few days back. Like, I write like I did before but once I publish it it all becomes a huge block. How many people will misread "huge block". hahha. Like when you have to read out loud at school and it says like organism or something and you read orgasm. Happens to me creepily often. Either way. To my original point. Sometimes when I read too much, or write too much on this blog, everything I ever do is narrated in my head like a book or blog entry. Thats also how I know if I'm spending too much time on facebook: I find random status updates in everything I do. Talking about facebook, the father, who like all men think they know more about everything than other people, is creeping me out with stalking me. Like, he knows stuff about me I even forgot about, because he goes through my wall and remembers everything. That used to creep me out with R at first, how he'd know so much stuff about me from my facebook and blog. So Im considering deleting him from my facebook again. The father of course, not R. Him i dont even talk to since he told me to fuck off last weekend. Im still so impressed with that. On the subject of pissed off people, the other night I saw this girl who I think I wrote about before, like in sports once we were playing bball and I accidentially smacked her across the face (gracious I know), and she like freaked out totally even though she didnt even get hurt and I apologized a million times. So I went to say hi to her just to say sorry again and make sure we were cool, and she totally hated on me! I was like hey, how are you, sorry about sports right (at least thats what I think I said, I was relatively drunk), and shes like "yeah omg its just a game" and being all totally pissed off. I mean come on, I didnt do that on purpose and I fucking said I was sorry, theres not really anything more I can do. Now normal people woudlnt even care at this point, but I really cant deal with conflict and people not liking me. I guess Ill just have to get used to it. Im sooo fffing tiired. Im stumbling on the keys. I think I'll even go to bed soon. Wanted to go jogging but Ill see, my stomachs kindof hurting again =(. x /E