For real?

"Im not jealous... I just dont like your bf."

Okay so Im not supposed to comment on this but I feel that I must.
At first I thought I was jealous, but Im not actually. Im just shocked and kindof disgusted, like a 10 year old stumbling on a porn magazine. A boy Ive slept with is with my friend. I mean, Ive seen him naked and felt his skin against mine, as if remembering that didnt make me nauseous, thinking of him with her makes me sick to my stomach.
And how can she seriously want him? I know I definitely lost every last trace of interest when I found out he was such a slut. I dont know about her but I woudlnt want to date a boy with that kind of reputation, who has been in every girls pants and every girl would die of shame if anyone found out. If I were here Id look the other way, for a real man. Then again, youthful mistakes.

Soo enough on that subject. Permanently.

Im talking to David, I really want to see him and we were talking about him coming to my country house, we would have been alone, but since he has basketball games and stuff he cant... So Im trying to get my parents to let me sleep over at his. My moms really nervous about that because well partially because he lives in an area a bit less classy than mine, that is to say I may get raped and murdered there, and partially because she thinks that letting me sleep over at a boys house is symbolically the same as saying its ok to sleep with him.
Not that I would. I think. I mean okay this is the first time since we got to know each other that were both single when were meeting up but hes a great friend, and even though I dont think we would ruin anything... I kindof like the boy Im seeing in Basel. But I dont know if hes in contact with other girls too. I should maybe make that clear first.

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