Cuddle

"There is no law that says that a chick cant be a bro"

So I just got home basically, 3 hour bus ride but my mom was nice and picked me up half way.

Im sooo tired. Yesterday David had a game that ended at like 10 and then we went to his with his parents in the car, then a friend of his who was really nice came over and left at like 23.30... then we lay in his bed and talked for hours, as one tends to do at sleepovers. And no, we didnt have sex. I kind of think of him as a brother, but then not really. More like a stand-in boyfriend without the sexual part of it. I mean, we can laugh hysterically, talk about stuff youre not supposed to talk to boys/girls about, and remember being little kids, at the same time as he can hug me or stroke me across the cheek in the sweetest way and that just makes me smile. We watched Robin hood, the disney movie, and then kind of wrestled on the couch because he was trying to tickle me, and obviously I had no shot since hes got like 30 kgs on me. When we were falling asleep my feet were cold so I put them next to his feet and of cause that escalated to me cuddling up next to him with his arms around me. He says I breathe really loudly when I sleep and it kept him up for a while -.- But I suppose thats just revenge for almost tossing me into the water! Although I was wearing some of his clothes too so they would have gotten wet aswell haha.

Maybe its because I act like a real little girl around some boys, but they get the impulse of treating me like one. Like, kissing my forehead while my friends laugh about it. Some sort of protective thing, and I cant say I dont like being looked out for. Ive gotten more into that lately, having boys feel manly and make decisions.

But so back to David, I have a good feeling about that nothing happened, but who the hell manages to have me in their bed wearing one of his tshirts and a thong without trying anything. And before you say it, hes not gay. I guess hes just the only type of boy I can really be friends with, because in his own way hes a gentleman, at least towards me.

I drove a long way today. Thats right, I started driving. I got up to like 90 km/h and my mom was freaking out saying I didnt stay in the middle of the road like I should have but in reflection she says I did a good job.

Now Im gona go do some gardening or sleep or something.

x

/E

p.s.

I really cant hold a grudge. I started feeling bad about the Lara thing within like an hour. I love you sweetie.