When you know you have a problem

Watching Supersize vs. Superskinny and missing dieting. My stomach is crazy full atm because I've gotten myself used to not eating, and to, when face with food, keep drinking water to not eat. Well, when I end up having to finish my portion, I also drink loads of water from habit.

Now I'm drinking tea which probably doesn't help but it's a small cup and it makes me feel better. I just feel so stupid for eating an apple I didn't even have to eat because I like apples. I can't remember the last time I ate something because I like eating it.

Anyways. Watching Supersize vs. Superskinny, where they compare obese peoples diets to underweight peoples diets, I'm actually shocked to see how much those skinny little girls eat. "The average woman needs 2000 kcal/day, Emma eats only 1 500!". Uhm, yeah. 1500 is to me what normal people eat. Or what I thought they ate... frustrating.

I'm fighting on, but I keep having to double check that the portion I'm eating is actually normal and not as much as it looks and feels.

It's all just really scary.

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