That's just me

A million years ago, R made a blog too, but locked it so only I could read it. I just found it again...

For some reason, I feel like people around me are pairing off. I kind of have this desperate fear of being alone somehow...

But right, it's about having someone you like being alone with, not just someone you want to show off to your friends, which would actually be the purpose of whatever boy I'd get together with out of envy of people who are "in relationships".

I have some kind of anxiety about this. Wanting to be different and wondering why I'm not treated like everyone else.

Why am I so afraid of being like other girls then? I shudder at the thought... maybe because I know enough about what goes on behind the curtains.

I'm just so sick of being the girl who boys want to cheat on their girlfriends with. I'm not sure I'd rather have the other role though.

x

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