12

12 already? Time sure moves quickly.
Today, I've bummed around, played with the bunnies and read a lot. After a dinner with my family, I went to an old friends house. We used to be really close but then we lost touch and it's nice to see that we still get along really well. She just went through a breakup, so we could relate to each other a lot about that. Mostly, whats bothering after splitting up, are the mood changes. One second you hate the asshole, then you love him and want him back, and then you feel neutral. It's exhausting. I wish I could just stay on neutral instead.
I never went through this with M, even though I definitely care(d) more about him. Maybe it's the rejection that stings. It's hard to think about, but I'm starting to think that I'm going to have to sit down and just really think about the whole thing until I've got it figured out. Harder than it sounds.