50 reasons to sleep with someone that don't include love

At first, I was thinking about listing 50 reasons, but then I realized I shouldn't think that way. I should get into the mindset that sex is what you do when you're in love, not when you're bored or lonely.
And okay, I get it. No one wants to hear any more about my first world boy troubles. I'm just sort of worried lately, because of the whole relationship question with M and all that. I don't think he realizes that it still bothers me, even if I understand his point. I just thought that maybe I'd somehow be able to make that work, because I only want to be with him, but then I felt so rejected somehow and my first reaction is of course to see that other guy I've been seeing. And there we go with another reason to have sex with someone that isn't love: Self-affirmation. Coping with rejection.
I'm just convincing myself more and more of that there's something wrong with the way I think. Or maybe, there's something wrong with the way I don't think. Self-destructive coping mechanisms and all.

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