Some days

Some days nothing seems worth it. Why get out of bed? Why eat? Why study? What are the chances of me dying within the next 5 years and will have no use of school anyways?

I have so much to do and no urge to do it.

To do:

-Eat lunch

-Study chemistry

-Improve my spanish essay

-Write a german essay (extra assignment) a

nd apologize to my teacher for not calling back when we misunderstood each other last tuesday and he waited for me.

-Talk to my trainer about the horse I wanted to buy, but I don't think I want it anymore

-Look for summer job

-Eat dinner

What not to do:

-Call R

-Bake

-Comfort eat

-Watch TV

-Jump in front of a tram

Okay that last one was a bit sarcastic.

Odds are I'd do them in that order though, except for the

last one. That's just a hypothetical one.

Yesterday we got the tickets to belgium anyways. In a week we'll be on the train.

Some people were meeting up last night and I told L she could call if she wanted me there. She didn't call...

Not like I want to be there if they don't like me, and even if she had called I would have been too tired to go, but it would have been nice if she had.

It all feels a little fake lately.

I miss R! I feel like telling him that the reason I noticed he deleted me on Facebook was that I miss him to death and check his profile every 10 minutes.

But I gave it my best shot and he didn't want me back. He's too much over me to open that up again. And what he thinks of me insults me. Have I changed, or is that just how he remembers me?

Oh well. I guess the mothers gonna make me eat now. And then on with chemistry.

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