And there it was: the talk

"About your gentlemans visit earlier this week... you don't think I'm stupid, do you?"

Thats how the talk started. I'd kind of expected it to come a bit sooner but yeah. I told her it doesn't happen often and she said "yeah, I hope so, for your reputations sake"

MY goddamn reputation? Have you forgotten your husband goes to discos with 20 year olds? As if I could ever grow up to be respectable with those genes.. and I've heard some not so decent stories about you too mother dearest. The father can't shut up about anything, even if it was forever ago.

So sorry if I didn't move in with some random 19 year old asshole when I was 16.

I may be alone, I may get less respect than a pigeon from 90% of the male population, but at least... yeah, at least what?

I've got nothing.

Except my shitty reputation. And YES I KNOW I brought it on myself.

That pisses me off when certain people say it because they're no better themselves, they just pretend they are.

I'm kind of angry right now. Crossing over to anxious. Alone. This is why I can't fucking sleep -.-

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