The father called and I hung up on him.. sorry. It's just so damn expensive when he calls on my cellphone. And then he texts asking if "Ma" is away.
WHO THE FUUUCCKK SAIS "MA". He won't stop it no matter how many times I tell him that its trailer trash... -.-
So anyways, since I'm not 18 I guess my going out with his clique may be limited this summer, but it seems I'll take part in at least some of the pride festival. Yeah, the father has always been fashinated by that whole deal. I'm trying to be open about it/ignore it.
I sometimes ask myself how he'd react if I came home with a 50 something year old lady and told him she was my new lover, like he takes on young boys. He'd probably laugh. As mother says, I'm not to be compared to them, I'm a whole different world to him. But I mean, even though he probably loves me incomparably much to his latest objects of affection, he does very much less to show it. Like when I spend I dont know 6 weeks per year in sweden and he thinks its more important to spend 3 days driving up to the middle of nowhere to go see his little toyboy... Hello? Being taken for granted much?
I remember when he was obsessed with a loser without a future, a high school drop out with about 4 braincells and 5% body fat, I had to listen for hours to his rant about how this kid is sooo amazing because hes a waiter and can wait on 90 people at once, and him dropping out of high school was because he got a little sad when his undying love for one of his teachers wasn't reciprocated. Uhm, hello? Imagine I come on to mr. M, he turns me down (obviously), I drop out of school because I'm "sad" and go to work at starbucks as a career. It's completely bizarre. If I even say that I'm failing a subject because I don't like the teacher I get a speech about how "we are all in charge of our own happiness" and if I'm miserable it's all my own fault. whattafuck... And when I mention this to him, even if it's in a calm tone, I'm "being paranoid". Screw you...
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