Pessimist me

"Making your mark on the world is hard. If it were easy, everybody would do it."

I always try to smile at people, because I imagine it will make their day a little bit better. It doesn't hurt that people tend to like people who smile at them.
I don't know, lately I've just felt more positive in general. Atleast I don't mind the thought of getting out of bed tomorrow. Life is somehow full of small triumphs and they make it all worthwhile. Like today I got an essay back in german and I got the best grade I've ever gotten on one of those. Yeah, I'll bet you want to know, so even though I don't like comparing grades I'll tell you: 4,75. Pretty amazing considering I'm being judged as if it were my 1st language even though it's my 3rd and I didn't start to learn it at all until I was 12.
Today I had a spanish presentation which went less well. We didn't get graded but I almost freaked out at the teacher. He looked down throughout the presentation so I might as well could have been reading instead of having learned it all, and then afterwards he looked at me with that kind of amused smile he has that looks like he has no idea what I'm talking about and only really wants to laugh at me, and asked me follow up questions which he does when someone has left out the most important parts. I thought I hid my rage pretty well but I guess I didn't since he talked to me afterwards about how I get emotional too quickly. I guess I am that sort of person, I mean, I can pend from extreme points of emotion within seconds, which can be good and bad. I mean, if I'm mad at someone, it can be enough that they smile at me and I adore them. Then if someone is in my opinion insulting me I can sound a bit more agressive than intended.
Right now I should be working on some schoolwork. Don't call me a nerd haha, I really don't do much more than I need to.
Just look forwards to the possibility of a later update =)
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p.s. for those of you who don't know, the x is a kiss. o means hug. =)