Love

"The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness "

I love songs that explain the way I feel. 

Another thing I love? M. I really love him so much I don't know what to do with it. I wanna kiss him and hug him and live happily ever after with him. And we will. 

In a quite drunken state on New Years Eve where I switched between crying and trying to get into his pants (classic drunk me), I asked him to move in with me. I've wanted to, though I felt a bit stupid just asking... but some glasses of champagne later and I'll say anything and everything that's on my mind. And that's the very romantic story of how we decided it would be awesome to live together next fall. 

Of course, we have yet to discuss concretely how we're going to do it, practically. He said something about how we maybe possibly wouldn't mind living in the central city at first, because I want to live there to be closer to the school I'm applying to and stuff. 

I guess right now I'm just so stressed out about studying for final exams and applying to the university I want to go to. There's only one, and I know it's stupid, but it's the only one I want to go to and I'm quite sure I'll get in. If not, I'll apply for spring again. 

Well, now I'm gonna get some stuff ready for school tomorrow, and then I'm gonna sleep.