sick

"Being near him, it hurts. But it's worse staying away. " If there was something wrong with you, if you could find a diagnose to explain why you do certain things or can't do certain things, would you want to know it? Would you want someone to tell you that it's not your fault, that it's a disease, that you can get better? It feels better blaming yourself. Then you may whip yourself into doing something. If you can say "its not my fault", thats just an excuse to keep fucking up. x /E