Baby

"Lets be naughty and save santa the trip"

So happy birthday R, even though it was technically yesterday. Remeber last year when we used food dye to make beer green because it was st patricks day...

Spent the evening with J, the boyfriend. Met his mom even. And his cat came up to me this time, shes really cute. So anyways, I'm not quite sure what kind of impression I made on his mom, I mean, she seemed friendly, but if I had a son and he brought me home, I wouldn't like me. But I think she liked me, and if she didn't, there will be time to win her over. It feels like that now. Like it's me and him now, it's not make-believe and it wont fly away if I turn my head. We can really talk about everything, all the taboo subjects you're not supposed to mention so early in a relationship, and we even talk about how were not following the "rules" of relationships... of cause, boys think those rules are bullshit and you should just go with it, its girls who tell themselves that youre not supposed to talk about certain things on a first date and stuff like that. I mean, if you just chill out a little and don't clinge on to him like you think he'll leave first chance he gets(if he does, he would anyways), theres no need to think too much about it.
The truth is, stereotypes suck. It's not true at all that it's always the girl who falls in love and the boy whos afraid of commitment, and many boys I know are much more keen on planning their dream wedding with their dream girl that girls are. In fact, when a boy falls hard for the first time, he tends to seriously believe that itll last forever. Its pretty cute, really.
But I don't believe that two people can be together forever.

Now I guess I should sleep. The original plan was to stay up and write on the LaP, but I'll push it up yet again.

Big question: saturday is my birthday -> will I have a party?
Not soon, no. Me and Lara talked about having a not-my-birthday-party together, since her birthday has passed too, but we're putting it off for a while.

So anyways: sleep. Tomorrow night I'm seing J again <3.

x
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