I've said it before

I know I've said it before, but it's crazy how quickly you can get used to sleeping next to someone. For 15 nights I've fallen asleep to the sound of his breaths and the feel of his warm body far too close to mine to be even remotely comfortable. It was wonderful and I don't know how to get back. I don't even care that I woke up with a numb arm a million times some nights because, let's face it, it's impossible to be comfortable while cuddling someone in your sleep, and I'm sure he can get over me almost pushing him out of the bed a few times. I want my M back in my bed. Now.
Sometimes, when my stomach was hurting, probably because of my IBS and my stomach being weird when I'm stressed, and I didn't like it when he put his arm around me, he'd lay behind me and stroke my back with his fingertips. I miss that feeling so much.
It's like, I feel so lonely without him and it hurts but at the same time I'm filled with a sort of warm longing. It sucks, but it'll all be fine when I see him again.
He might come here for two weeks in a month or so, even though I have exams, because otherwise we wouldn't see each other for 12 weeks, and that's just too much to bear.

On other news, I'm back now so I'll probably keep writing more regularly now. At the moment I'm laying in bed, trying to sleep, because I have school in the morning. Urgh.