First time

I remember the first time I looked at him and knew that I would fall in love with him, and maybe even come to love him deeply for a very long time.
And I knew that he would love me too, or at least I liked to believe it.

The first time we met alone, he put his arm around me, and implied that there could be something between us. We later went to a rather secluded area and laid on the ground, next to each other. Suddenly, he put his arms around me and rolled me up on top of him. I liked being close to him, but it did feel very sexual and I was curious as to how it would affect him. Then he gave me that look. That look that people in movies get when they're about to kiss under the moonlight. And I didn't know if he wanted me to kiss him. Meanwhile, my shirt had decided to agree with gravity and revealed quite a lot of cleavage, but as far as I could see, he hardly glanced down. I didn't kiss him, but he did kiss my neck, and seemed to be really amused by how he could get me off. He texted me in the evening again.
6 weeks later, I went to his house to spend the night. We sat on his bed, he put his arm around me and I leaned towards his shoulder. Then we kissed. And made out for a bit.
Some days later we did it. I was sort of caught up in being good for him, and maybe I was a bit distant, but suddenly he just stopped, and looked at me. I asked him what was wrong and he said "nothing", so I laughed and asked why he'd stopped. He smiled, and said "I just like to look at you. You're beautiful."
And that's when I knew. That sort of thing is just so typical of him, and I really don't expect it. Even though he was quite mean after that, telling me he didn't like me as more than a friend and what not.

He really is a very sweet boy. Man. Whatever. I've never known someone like him, someone who never stops surprising me with how nice he is.
He's so incredibly sexy, but I didn't even notice that at first, because he's so kind and affectionate and smart that he couldn't possibly be good looking, too, because that just wouldn't be fair to the rest of the male population.
I'm gonna stop praising him now because otherwise he might realise how amazing he is and leave me for someone equally amazing. Not that he'd do that.