Trusting people

I know I sometimes talk about really random things here, but usually it's a song or a movie that brought it on.

So anyways.

I'm at home again, my fever is just below 38 degrees but I hadn't been able to study for the test today so I didn't go to school anyways. Yeah, I know, some people stay at home until their temperature is like 37.0, but I'm not really like that. I remember I used to think R was such a pussy when he was sick.

But then, he had a mother who spent a lot of time around home.

A lot of people with stay-at-home moms ask me what it's actually like to come home to an empty apartment. I can imagine it'd be really annoying to have someone ask you bout your day as soon as you come through the door. Someone who cooks for you... no way. I can't even let my mom put food on my plate, I could never handle her treating me like a child. Sure, I miss it sometimes, when I'm miserable and want to be comforted and she doesn't even notice. But I don't really want to depend on people. Actually, that's wrong... I want to, but I can't. When it comes down to it, I just can not trust people. At EYP we played this game where we stood in a close circle and pushed around a person in the middle. There were way heavier people than me who were pushed around without problem, so I knew they could handle my weight. Still, it was horrible. I just kind of awkwardly stood in the middle trying to lean a little to either side so it would look like I was making an effort.

My version of trusting people is I guess letting everybody know everything and not making a big deal out of it.

What's the difference between a mathematician and a philosopher?

The mathematician can do his job with paper, pencil and a bin.

The philosopher can do without the bin.

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