Competition

"All women are flirts, but some are restrained by shyness, and some by sense"

Have you ever been interested in a boy, and he's seemed interested in you, but then you find out that the other girls he's talking to are... well... not on what you though was his level? I don't like competition, usually it's not a huge problem since I don't tend to go after players, but it's okay as long as it's worthy competition. Being turned down for a seriously hot girl is acceptable, I mean, you can admit that she "won", but if the other girl isn't even anything spectacular, you turn it around in your head until you come to the conclusion that you aren't as great as you thought you were. Maybe it sounds like I'm on a high horse here but if you knew about the situation you would probably agree with me.
But then I think, if he wants a relationship, she can have him. I just want to be the first choice.

So I don't want to study french. I have so impossibly much to do all at once and that's when I have the least urge to do it. Atleast I'll be out all afternoon, so I don't have to sit at home and actively not do anything.
I should work on my LaP, but I started it on a mac and I can't transfer the stuff I've already done to my PC.
I should study french, but it's sooo much for 1/6 of a grade...
And I should read for english. I'm gona do that. The book I got isn't actually that bad, although I think it was mainly an attempt to make me less bored in class.

Tomorrow I'm studying maths with Sascha, we have a test on friday. I should also start looking at WR because I have like, no idea what it's about and the tests on thursday. I already start feeling like being sick towards the end of the week.
But I hold on to the idea of §9: You can't get kicked out if you were going through something difficult in your life at the time.
Not that I wouldn't pass the year, I actually have quite good grades somehow, I just constantly feel like I'm not trying hard enough and nothing can make me do so.

ouufff...
Leaving in half an hour or so to go to the hockey game, and then I'm going to S house afterwards. No, not alone haha, a bunch of people are watching a movie at his. Will be fun I think =)


Remember to seize every opportunity.

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