Benefits?

"Sex is not the answer. Sex is the question. "Yes" is the answer."

So yes, I'm single again. It didn't work out. No need to say more.

The question of friends with benefits came up today. Everyone has a different opinion of what this means, exactly, but to me it's a matter of being friends, hanging out, and occasionally, when drunk or so, be nicer to eachother, no need to read more into it than that. To me it doesn't solemnly mean sex, it's more of a non-relationship. The most important difference is that it's not exclusive, meaning you have no limits with other people.

I don't know about that, there's not really any boy I can see myself being that with, atleast not one who would want me back ("thats ridiculous Elsa", you say, "everyone wants you!" ..haha).
That's actually a semi-lie. But I don't feel like engaging in anything right after a breakup. Should wait a little. Like, 2 days. I mean, come on, be realistic, this is me we're talking about.

The most annoying thing about the friends with benefits concept is finding someone who's worth it. Someone who's both a good enough friend to trust and who also attracts you. Ever notice how most attractive people have a seriously annoying personality? I guess they don't need to be cool or nice, they've got their looks.
But then, most people who are nice get more attractive the longer you know them. Like, based on their mentality. I've been told by a close friend it's my mentality that makes me attractive (no I didn't sleep with him). I've never actually really had this kind of friendship with anyone, I mean, there's been a lot of "almosts" and a lot of mutual attraction with male friends, but for one reason or other, it never seemed to get going.

So tonight I have a game, with an U20 team. I actually play U17 but there's a whole lot of beginners there now so I sometimes go to the older team instead. I played my first official U20 game last Friday, and it went bad. The team played well, we won, but I sucked worse than ever. At least it wasn't too bad to be asked to play with them again. So tonight, starting at 20:20, you guys can cross your fingers for me. That's a thing you do for luck by the way, in case some of you didn't know.

Peace out for now =)

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