The house was lovely but incredibly cold.
It let me get closer to everyone in the class. Even though some of them drive me crazy at times they're great.
One person who I'm really amazed by is M (and I'll bet all his friends are freaking out now cos I'm mentioning him here). Just to make it clear, I'm not saying I'm attracted to him in any way. He's the kind of friend who senses when I'm down and hangs out with me and talks it out and gets it. Like, he basically listened to me whine about the stupid things I did and then told me what he thought which was so incredibly true that it completely mindfucked me.
Theres a difference between character traits and doing stupid things. Doing stupid things is not part of who I am, it's just part of what I do.
When I say doing stupid things you should read doing stupid boys. Because I did. Twice. And he loves someone else. He wouldn't even kiss me.
That made me feel so shitty, which could have been expected. But although I'm prone to self-destructive behavior, it shouldn't be part of my identity.
So I promised myself that the next time I have sex I'm gonna be in love.
x
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