onsdag 18 september 2013

And it took me that long

It took me that long to fuck everything up.
I seriously don't know why I can't pay attention to details. I must've left the cafe a complete mess before because I got an email saying that if everything isn't amazing tomorrow morning I'm fired. I know it's justified. I was stupid enough to actually leave the toaster iron on, and it was smoking. I almost burned the place down.
I should've just gone to uni. I should've studied right away instead. I'm such an idiot for thinking that I could actually do well in real life situations, it's obvious that I can't do anything but study. I should have just gone to uni to study literature or some shit and then become the most hated teacher ever, just so that I never had to leave a learning facility. I should just get a cat and start eating my way to obesity. Comfort zone.
As this has proven, I'm just too irresponsible to have things depend on me. Maybe I should just quit, and leave it to one of those 25 year olds with experience to take over. Maybe I should just hide away in the country side until I can apply to uni again, if they'll have me. Maybe I should just go off somewhere and give up, do what the rest of my generation is doing and just live off my parents forever. Fuck it all.

1 kommentar:

  1. Don't be so hard on yourself! You are new to this and it is an amazing opportunity, you're gonna learn so much and, on the way, make mistakes. But that is okay, you still have a great job and time to do all the things you want. Don't give up, you are great! <3

    SvaraRadera